Today, I have finally got an answer from my teacher and department about my thesis direction. I still remember the morning I was trying my best to finish my plan presentation slides and practicing a lot for not being a mess when I open my mouth. It was doing it like no tomorrow. But after the presentation, I know my teacher who are evaluate my plan did not impress at all. Or, maybe they just dont see the point why I am doing it. I can tell from their face and from their comments as well. I know it.
They ask me what is the link between my artistic project and the field of design. I cannot help to feel disappointed. I surely am. I have been spending so much time to try to take my project with a perspective in design. But still, I failed. It is not powerful enough to even see the linkage with design. Why can people see it in a perspective of designing an event and the process and content just happen to related to art? Why art have to be seperate from design and vise versa? Why every single thesis in my department have to solve a problem? Why a designer’s job is to save the world? well, maybe some of them can, but I am not going to take it too far. And I am not trying to say these with a willful mind too. I just dont see the point for every designer must get through their project by design research tools or method what so ever.
Anyhow, the answer is, yes, you can still do it as your plan, but for the artistic part that will not be counrt or consider as relevant in this department. So you will not get a good mark that’s for sure. But stepping back a little, then what is the point my department offer their student experimental course related to art and even include the process of art making. But then when comes to thesis, they state that artistic process is not relevant at the end. I cannot understand that.
I am lucky that I have an apparently supportive thesis instructor. What she encourage me to do is to follow my heart, and do the thing I want to. If I understand and accept that is the reality I have to face (plus there are no time to redo). She promise me she will try her best to get me through the process and still believe I could do a good job even the mark may not be very good.
For now, I am in a very strange complex mood to organize my mind. At the moment, I think I may not need to change too much in the current plan. But I still somehow need to work on and proof the side that my department consider as *Design*.
Damm you Design with a captial D.